Missing You.

I don't know how many years I'm neglect this blog. As for now, I try to post whatever I think is nice to be share.

For now, I already graduated from University and already secured a job that I want. I'm in the middle make a money and try to make my parents happy and pay back their all sacrifice. As for the love life, I think I need to heal first from broken heart. However, I will always remember him. Maybe its hard to move on but I will try. 2 years without him, no news and nowhere to be found. 

The one who teach me what is 'Rindu' and 'Sayang' beside from my parents. Don't get me wrong, I stay with my parents right now so I will see them everyday and they now how hurt I am when he left me. Both of us is been introduced by a friend, maybe its my fault fall in love with military man, I'm always proud of him wherever he go for his duty to protect this country. I only have one picture of him that he give to me. We never see each other and its hard to call him, only whatss app connecting us. Both of us already have a plan for the next step in our relationship but Allah is greater, Allah take you away from me. Maybe you have a reason to do so, I will always remember you. If one fine day, I found a man that can make me happy, I will let you go. Wherever you go, whatever you do I hope you will always safe my dear Lieutenant AH. 

Sincerely,

Nanny.

This Cruel World

i don't know how long i left this blog since my last entry, i'm fine and healthy. (even no one asking about me). After 22 years i born, now i know the world that live is cruel. So cruel until at one point i want to give up half way and leave it all, but there is 2 people in my life still wait and hope i can continue their dream as their daughter.

i was born to make people happy even though they only hear my silly jokes, because i want people know i can be happy even though i'm sad. But the truth is i need only one person who can lend their shoulders for me to let out all my sadness, only one person is enough. I'm happy for my friend who i left her because some small mistake she done in the past, i ignore her but now she found her new friends that can give her happiness, now she can smile again. Forgive me for what i'm done because now you are the one who help me when i'm in trouble.

i wish i can get back to the time when school day is a happy thing for me. Being adult is hard, the responsible is huge. People will do everything to take you down to make sure you lost, i think i will raise up white flag soon but i hope i will not do those. The worst thing i have done is i almost kill myself back in 2011 but i survive and try to stand again, i made it but now i regret why i survive that day.

Did anyone will help me go through this later? or in the end i will be left alone again?

Running but lonely

People ask me why i study far away from peninsular.
Answer : Because i want to run from all people who know me.

why?
Answer : i want to find my new identity, want to be better person. Find new experience.

Worth it?
Answer: I guess its worth it for me but i'm lonely.

never feel regret?
Answer : even though i feel lonely but i never regret, its my decision.

Feeling happy ?
Answer: 50 percent yes i'm happy.

Why 50 percent?
Answer: Because another 50 percent is gone with my sadness.


never feel it until you realize it.

Lets Fly.

it's been a month since i come back home from labuan to shah alam. Then 20 feb i will fly back to labuan for second sem in degree and university life.

I already got the result for sem 1 hehe..not bad for the first time. So i now i can do better than that so they will be a higher target for next sem maybe aiming for be in dean list?

I will try because this is my life, i want do this to change the entire of my life. For 2015 i wish i will be the strongest person who can through every hard time and no one can bring me down because i already tired to listen people words who will bring me down. Some people in this world just help us for their needs not to help us. Be careful with those people.

Till then.. Annyeong...

New Year Resolution.

New Year resolution ke benda..haha..azam saya still sama..nk capai azam yang tak tercapai..bengang tak dgr?

well..21 years old and still single..

minta mak cari jodoh lah..haha tak payah kita risau-risau..kita belajar je..

yg penting genggam ijazah..kerja..teguhkan iman dan akhlak..then kita teruskan ke fasa yang lebih serius..

P/s Saya setia orangnya..

Everybody Wants To Rule The world.

when I listen Lorde song " Everybody Wants To Rule The World" I start thinking if everybody wants to rule the world or the simple word is being a leader? Who will be their follower? This song make me think if we can be a good leader which mean you have the chance to rule the world if you cannot be a leader its okay you can be a follower but the one who have better idea and a good thinker to help the leader...so the follower also have a big contribution.. Understand? hehe..

The Song for Soul.

Bau-Warkah

Takkan lagi aku menunggu
kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta

Diriku tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa

Warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti yang aku kenali dulu
setiaku menantikan dirimu
seperti setianya terhadap diriku

Tapiku melepaskan mu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terusku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada


My all time favourite song..

Aku Disini Menantimu.

Berapa lama pun aku harus menunggu,
Namun aku percaya kau ada untukku,
Hanya waktu sahaja yang belum tiba,
Untuk kau muncul dalam hidupku,

Aku terima jika kau yang terbaik untukku,
Jika kau ditakdirkan untukku sekalipun aku terima,
Aku akan sentiasa menemanimu dan menjagamu,
Diseluruh hayatku,

Kerna kau raja yang bertahkta di hatiku,
Genggamlah tanganku disepanjang jalan hidupku,
Jika kau lepaskan genggaman itu,
Aku tahu itu pengakhirannya,

Dimanapun kau berada,
Aku berdoa untukmu,
Semoga doa ku mengiringimu,
Hingga saat itu aku setia bersamamu,

Dan Aku Disini Menantimu. 

Positive Thinking?

aloha, readers.
dari entry saya yang terakhir rasanya dah sebulan saya tinggalkan blog ni. Sorry lah kebelakangan ni sangat sibuk sebab baru tahu Kehidupan di Universiti jika anda seorang pelajar tahun satu bukan suatu perkara yang mudah.

Sedang menyesuaikan diri dengan keadaan dan tempat baru walaupun dah sebulan berada di bumi Labuan.

Sedang berusaha mencuba dengan lebih baik lagi.

Sedang mencari apa yang harus dilakukan agar tidak tersasar dari jalan yang dirancang.

Sedang memperbaiki kelemahan diri.

dan akhir sekali sedang berusaha, mencari dan memperbaiki segala aspek yang ada pada diri saya.

Tiada siapa yang sempurna termasuk awak ! awak ! dan saya juga.

Just think positive everything will be fine.

" WINNER never quit and QUITTER never win."

Selamat Hari Merdeka Malaysia.

walaupun hanya tinggal beberapa jam lagi untuk ke 1 september 2014 namun saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Merdeka kepada tanah air ku Malaysia.

tidak kira apa pun bangsa kita, Kita satu Malaysia dan inilah tanah tumpah darahku..


p/s esk 1 september bermulalah hari ku sebagai seorang pelajar Universiti.