i don't know how long i left this blog since my last entry, i'm fine and healthy. (even no one asking about me). After 22 years i born, now i know the world that live is cruel. So cruel until at one point i want to give up half way and leave it all, but there is 2 people in my life still wait and hope i can continue their dream as their daughter.
i was born to make people happy even though they only hear my silly jokes, because i want people know i can be happy even though i'm sad. But the truth is i need only one person who can lend their shoulders for me to let out all my sadness, only one person is enough. I'm happy for my friend who i left her because some small mistake she done in the past, i ignore her but now she found her new friends that can give her happiness, now she can smile again. Forgive me for what i'm done because now you are the one who help me when i'm in trouble.
i wish i can get back to the time when school day is a happy thing for me. Being adult is hard, the responsible is huge. People will do everything to take you down to make sure you lost, i think i will raise up white flag soon but i hope i will not do those. The worst thing i have done is i almost kill myself back in 2011 but i survive and try to stand again, i made it but now i regret why i survive that day.
Did anyone will help me go through this later? or in the end i will be left alone again?
